What is my purpose in life

There have been days, nights and endless times that I have asked “what is my purpose in life.” Especially when darkness clouds my thoughts and nothing makes any sense.

I have not had an easy life, a lot of hardships and learning, but I have always succeeded in overcoming some difficult situations. By the grace of God, I believe I have survived so long. Since I lost my job, it has been an extremely difficult period in my life, simply because I cannot find work. It is South Africa and affirmative action, the new Black Empowerment laws make it difficult for people like myself to find work. However, I have sought to find meaning, understanding, and take this time to grow, find the purpose for my life and I imagine there are millions more who seek clarity.

It is through spiritual teachers, divine intercession and the Word of God that I manage to hang on for another day. When my mind wanders into the future, I become depressed, but then quickly realize that I am not in the future and force my mind to return to the PRESENT. When my mind wanders, back to the past, I become physically ill and again I have to force my mind to get back into the NOW. I have come to realize that I am only happy, content, and peaceful by staying focused on the present moment. It is not easy to stay focused on the present moment, but with each passing day, I am becoming a little stronger, enlightened, and alive.

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"What is my purpose in life?" I asked the void. "What if I told you that you fulfilled it when you took an extra hour to talk to that kid about his life?" said the voice. "Or when you paid for that young couple in that restaurant? Or when you saved that dog in traffic? Or when you tied your father's shoes for him?"

"Your problem is that you equate purpose with goal-based achievement. God or the Universe or morality isn't interested in your achievements… just your heart. When you choose to act out of kindness, compassion and love, you are already aligned with your true purpose. No need to look any further."
From ~ Note to Self ~